♥

:X

2012-02-03T02:50:00.003+08:00

i don't know how to put this in words.
:(

karma

2012-01-26T06:26:00.002+08:00

i think i really did something horrible there
really completely forgot about it i don't know why i suddenly recalled
i don't know maybe all this is just karma
:(

最低

2012-01-23T05:15:00.001+08:00

いきなりわかってきた
つーかああいゆやつマジ最低
もう死ねばいい

happy cny ♥

2012-01-23T03:53:00.002+08:00

i will not get stuck in this trap again!
don't let your guard down sze min!

hope everyone has a fantastic dragon year :)

:(

2012-01-21T22:41:00.001+08:00

it happened again omg i suck.
sigh. :(

okay cny soon!!!

withdrawal

2012-01-20T08:47:00.000+08:00

i'm going crazy
it's starting to hit
I WANT TO SHOPPPPPP

trollface

2012-01-19T00:38:00.001+08:00

thank you for making my day better, whoever you are (i think i know though LOL)

me

2012-01-14T11:54:00.002+08:00

guess this being happier thing is working out pretty well :)
finally comfortable with who i am and the way things are
yay

(except for the pesky fact that i cannot get back to sleep right now)

okay

2012-01-12T19:29:00.000+08:00

one step at a time.
today i have to write my resume!!!!

love

2012-01-12T05:27:00.001+08:00

EXILE聞くとなんかいやされる♥
but sometimes i also wonder
もう運命の人とすれ違ったかな

puhleeze

2012-01-10T17:59:00.000+08:00

you cannot expect me to tell you anything about my life
when the only time i ever hear from you is regarding this stuff.
seriously.

exile ♥

2012-01-07T22:22:00.001+08:00

NONONONONO

2012-01-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

I AM NOT GONNA MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN NOOO.
NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE FUCKKK.

sigh

2012-01-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

guess being happier in 2012 is not working out so well so far.
oh well 12 more months to go.

fuck this.

2012-01-02T11:54:00.001+08:00

i am not you.
i am not him.
i am not anyone else.
stop trying to make me someone i'm not.

lots of people do this and grow up being totally well adjusted.
i don't see why this is such a huge problem to you.

and you ask me why i don't tell you anything.
how can i?
you can't handle it.

stop getting pissed off just cos you're not in control.
i'm not a fucking bird.
you can't keep me in your cage forever.

2012

2012-01-02T10:46:00.002+08:00

and it's 2012 :)
i resolve to be a happier person this year :)

2011

2011-12-31T15:15:00.004+08:00

i can't say if it was a good or bad year
there were lots of ups and downs
but i feel like i learnt a lot
and grew up a lot
i guess that's a good thing

here's to an improved me in 2012 (:

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED

2011-12-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

travelling

2011-12-26T02:33:00.002+08:00

guess travelling partners are REALLY important :X

screw this

2011-12-21T04:08:00.002+08:00

and from this day on, not a single fuck was given
(this day on not actually being today lol)

backk

2011-12-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

was an awesomeeee holiday ♥
but once again made me realise how much of a shithole this place is

oh well time to pack my luggage again

goddess

2011-12-05T21:26:00.001+08:00

why is she so gorgeousss

plan for today

2011-12-05T19:09:00.001+08:00

1. run
2. soak in the bathtub! <3
3. ???
4. PROFIT!!!

(5. pack my luggage T__T)

you like games?

2011-12-05T03:22:00.001+08:00

ok let's play

I'll show you

2011-12-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

I had a man say to me, ‘You will die alone in a house bigger than you know, with all your money and hit records, and you will die alone.’ Even though I know it sounds a bit Hallmark, whenever I [was] in that kind of stressful, worthless moment, I would think, ‘I’ll show you.’”

Lady Gaga is my queen ♥

wow

2011-12-03T04:14:00.001+08:00

can't believe it's been like more than a year since i moved here (here being blogger)
kinda disappeared when i was in japan though
but wow time really flies

i used to sound so much happier though!
or maybe i just bothered to blog even when i wasn't down
or maybe i just bothered to write out everything i was actually thinking

oh well.

nice smells make me happy

2011-12-03T01:59:00.001+08:00

my new love ♥

♥

2011-12-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

thank god for my friends
don't know how i'd still be alive without them

gaga

2011-11-30T06:02:00.001+08:00

♥
i think i love her

幸せ

2011-11-20T20:59:00.001+08:00

幸せってなんなんですか

どうせなれないでしょ

crazycrazycrazy

2011-11-14T20:18:00.001+08:00

i'm going crazy

on a happier note

2011-11-12T03:45:00.001+08:00

I'M FREE!!

exceptions

2011-11-10T01:42:00.001+08:00

i hate them

same same

2011-11-10T00:14:00.003+08:00

at the end of the day
everyone can empathize
because as much as you feel like you're the only one who feels this way
there's definitely others out there going through the same thing
just remember that next time you feel like you're alone :)

:))

2011-11-07T03:48:00.001+08:00

talent

2011-11-03T04:13:00.001+08:00

some things you can only be born with

stage 3

2011-11-03T01:45:00.003+08:00

yeah i should really stop blaming others for everything
i would like to say when did i become like that
but the fact is i always was
i can be a better person than that

kirakun

2011-11-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

the cutest 6yo boy ever?!

change

2011-11-01T04:25:00.001+08:00

so one day it's gonna be my turn to say
goodbye suckers

🔲

2011-10-27T03:43:00.001+08:00

the truth may not make you happy
but the truth will set you free

addendum

2011-10-26T10:49:00.001+08:00

this feeling of inadequacy
i'm never gonna be rid of it am I
change cos the world ain't gonna change for you

and I fucking hate those people
who can live everyday
not knowing what this feels like
they have no idea
but they think they do

yameyou

2011-10-23T15:16:00.002+08:00

hate being a girl

あした消えてたら気づいてくれる？

inspiration

2011-10-23T01:39:00.001+08:00

by the way yes i know they're are different people

60 days ago

2011-10-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

heard this on the radio earlier
and it reminded me of sooo much stuff
this was basically the soundtrack of my entire trip :(

i wanna be there right now :( :( :(
no matter how much i looked forward to coming back :( :( :(

trains

2011-10-21T00:58:00.001+08:00

talking about public transport issues only serves to piss me off
especially since all the people speaking up for the current situation don't even seem to take the train on a regular basis
nor do they take it at different times of the day
or at different places
it's like, look, i take it from one fucking end of the island to the other
i know how bad this shit is
so fucking tired of this
get your shit together please

sensory memory

2011-10-19T00:47:00.001+08:00

happier times :)

$$$ is more reliable than people

2011-10-19T00:31:00.002+08:00

kinda wish i had time to sit around and wallow in my misery
except i am so fucking busy

yes sze min this is for the better!!!

because everytime i don't shop for extended lengths of time i start getting ridiculously repressed and cranky and it's like pms x 13984095
i don't know why i keep forgetting this
tmd money come to me!

moar revelations

2011-10-13T22:46:00.000+08:00

when i was younger i always thought it was all peaches and cream
and it probably was back then
though i don't know why as we all grow older
it gets more complicated
or maybe everyone just starts thinking too much
or maybe i was just a noobcake and didn't realise at all

...now i feel like eating peaches with cream

popteen

2011-10-12T01:24:00.001+08:00

wow
its official
i'm too old for popteen

ok fine i realised this awhile ago

but when lip service and egoist and dia look like that on the models...
hahaha

i suck at titles

2011-10-11T03:48:00.001+08:00

a whole bunch of things running through my head right now
from really frivolous things
to huge unanswerable questions

i really should go sleep

except i can't

REVELATIONS

2011-10-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

new facts keep coming to light!!
and it really shouldn't be that shocking but i always am so shocked!
maybe because i suck but still
oh oh oh oh oh oh ohmygod
hahahaha

yes i am in a good mood (though it is irrelevant to the above mentioned revelation)

self-convincing

2011-10-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

there's a reason for everything!
this is for my own good.

stop thinking so much self!

piss off

2011-10-08T14:12:00.001+08:00

can't stand people who keep claiming to be bananas just cos bananas are suddenly damn popular.
ya i know you like bananas but hello there is a rite of passage to becoming a banana ok.
doesn't mean you wear yellow and are in the jungle means you're a banana.
some more what you think is yellow is not even yellow it's like a bad imitation of yellow.
but you don't know this because you're not a banana!
looking like a poor imitation of a banana does not make you a banana unfortunately.
try again next time.

october

2011-10-08T02:00:00.002+08:00

busybusybusy
but it feels nice
これが充実してる生活かｗ

i'm hungry

2011-10-07T06:36:00.000+08:00

cleaned my room... pretty amazing what efficiency proper incentives can result in.
but my clothes are still basically chucked wherever.
but that can wait for the next incentive to appear.

suddenly realised that i was always paranoid.
like since i was young.
it's just this inability to trust people.
i would have nightmares about this stuff.

i don't think this is healthy.

いまさらなんだけど

2011-10-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

西野カナ「君って」PV from KanaNishino on Vimeo.

♥♥♥
♥ this song to death

2

2011-10-06T06:32:00.001+08:00

planning holidays is fun
but once again
$$$$$$$$
sigh
jiayou sze min

happy pt. 2

2011-10-05T04:07:00.002+08:00

happiness is a scary feeling

fucking ridic

2011-10-03T13:49:00.000+08:00

WTF
some people are ridiculous

selfish?

2011-10-01T13:37:00.000+08:00

yeah i'm selfish
but this kinda behaviour and thinking is so contagious
aren't you selfish too
for wanting to drag everyone down with you?

scary

2011-09-30T18:43:00.001+08:00

this is scary
too many good things are happening at once. :X :X :X
i have a bad feeling about this

happy

2011-09-29T20:10:00.002+08:00

omg this kinda thing can make me soooooo happy
this is insane
but kinda awesome at the same time :D :D

beppin

2011-09-29T05:00:00.000+08:00

can i get their bodies please

i hate myself

2011-09-29T03:04:00.001+08:00

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myselfffff
i need to MAN THE FUCK UP
arghhhh
stop this nonsense right now!!!

[edit] ok yes seeee you can do it what

phuket

2011-09-27T18:54:00.000+08:00

ok i can get through this
in 3 months i will be here!

here

2011-09-27T02:05:00.000+08:00

i've realised.
finally.
i like it so much better on the other side because
they don't make me feel fucking inadequate.

fuck you singapore.
(yes you are the one making me feel like i'm not worth shit)

coffee cup flasher

2011-09-26T20:27:00.002+08:00

too cute
more here

やばー

2011-09-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

イケメンの写真見るだけでマジいやされるw

わたしどんだけ飢えてんのかよ？！

feelings of inadequacy

2011-09-23T13:20:00.001+08:00

sometimes it's upsetting not because of specific people, but because everyone does that. and I get that it's normal but I still feel upset. like. is it because it's me. and then when someone that matters does it it cements that suspicion in my head. and that, kids, that results in all the feelings of inadequacy.

all in all I would love to be like fuck you and fuck this, but it's just not happening.

i thought

2011-09-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

i thought i could escape all that bullshit when i came back. who knew there was more waiting for me back here. ~~except I'll never be able to escape because it's not them, it's me.~~

give me japanese boys any day at least they're hotter.

meh

2011-09-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

started another job.
so tired now don't feel like working anymoreee.
but. $$$$$
:(
meh. need to remember to find office job next time.

tired tired tireeeed.

i wish i were in shibuya right now.

2011-09-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

homg how can they be so hot

すっきり

2011-09-14T01:58:00.003+08:00

嫌になっちゃうときは
やっぱ何とかしないと！！

ちょっとだけすっきりした☆
これからもがんばります！

2011-09-13T12:50:00.001+08:00

今の自分が嫌

hanging by a thread

2011-09-12T02:30:00.001+08:00

or maybe all it takes is one word
and the whole balance is upset

an exercise in futility

2011-09-11T01:05:00.003+08:00

it's like
sometimes you tell yourself you don't care
and you really don't
at least not that much
but you can if you want to
but there's no point because even if you do
what changes?
and so even though it's annoying to keep consciously holding back like this
it's the only way to stay sane.

kiseki no ichimai redux

2011-09-05T19:15:00.001+08:00

omfg she's really amazing wtf

OHMYGOOOOD

2011-09-03T16:39:00.003+08:00

need (censored) for (censored)
don't know who to ask.
don't know HOW to ask.
hate my lifeeee.
asdfjkl;
fmlfmlfml why am i such a fucking wallflower.

♥

2011-08-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

love this song

成长

2011-08-29T01:54:00.002+08:00

去了一趟一人游
学会了多爱自己一些些
发现了自己没有想像中的无助
也长大了那么一点点

以后可能还有无数次的被欺骗
但是眼睛开始会睁大一点
也不会再有以前的那种痛了

:)

叶子

2011-04-21T11:07:00.001+08:00

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停

wooden marimba

2011-04-14T02:38:00.002+08:00

GENIUS.

happiness

2011-04-13T02:41:00.000+08:00

1. Making comparisons can spoil your happiness
2. Happiness often comes when least expected
3. Many people only see happiness in their future
4. Many people think happiness comes from having more power or more money
5. Sometimes happiness is not knowing the whole story
6. Happiness is a long walk in beautiful, unfamiliar mountains
7. It’s a mistake to think that happiness is the goal
8. Happiness is being with the people you love; unhappiness is being separated from the people you love
9. Happiness is knowing that your family lacks for nothing
10. Happiness is doing a job you love
11. Happiness is having a home and a garden of your own
12. It’s harder to be happy in a country run by bad people
13. Happiness is feeling useful to others
14. Happiness is to be loved for exactly who you are (People are kinder to a child who smiles)
15. Happiness comes when you feel truly alive
16. Happiness is knowing how to celebrate
17. Happiness is caring about the happiness of those you love
18. Happiness is not attaching too much importance to what other people think
19. The sun and the sea make everybody happy
20. Happiness is a certain way of seeing things
21. Rivalry poisons happiness
22. Women care more than men about making others happy
23. Happiness means making sure that those around you are happy

according to hector

just wow

2011-04-03T06:11:00.006+08:00

this guy's voice is amazing.
and never knew 台语歌 could sound like this.

Cheese / Chocolate

2011-03-29T04:36:00.003+08:00

Everything tastes better with melted cheese on it. That is a fact. But maybe it will taste weird with milk chocolate. It makes a sort of warped sense that two glorious tasting things just cannot go together. They need their own space to be amazing. Maybe being amazing is something you do alone.

from story of a dot

gorgeous song

2011-03-27T00:42:00.001+08:00

爱沿着抛物线

2011-03-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

let me introduce you

2011-03-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

to the hottest man alive

日焼けチーク

2011-03-06T22:55:00.003+08:00

今度挑戦しま～す♪

hello? is it me you're looking for?

2011-03-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

LOLOLOL

so we'd better call the calling off off

2011-03-05T15:54:00.002+08:00

i wonder if i'll ever find someone like that one day.

meep meep

2011-03-05T10:36:00.001+08:00

they don't do cartoons like these anymore.

:(

2011-03-03T17:38:00.002+08:00

what a depressing mv :(

sometimes it hurts instead

2011-02-26T22:28:00.001+08:00

tell us about yourself

2011-02-14T22:59:00.004+08:00

i hate filling out those scholarship/job applications/resumes/questionnaires asking me to tell the organizations about myself.
it's like, what. i'm just like every other 21 year old girl out there.
what do you want me to say.

my interests are shopping sleeping surfing the internet.
i'm constantly broke and keep terrible track of my money.
i love hot guys and korean boybands.
and pop music and r&b and (some) jazz
and sometimes going out and getting wasted (but not everyday)

but seriously that's not what they want to hear right.
who the hell writes that for a job application.
they always want to hear about stuff like achievements and accomplishments and talents and it's like
hey i don't have any of those okay.

and filling up these damn forms always remind me of that fact.
ugh.

consequences

2011-02-02T02:39:00.002+08:00

life right now is reminding me of how much I hate working. well I suppose most people do. omg the eternal dilemma of the work-leisure decision. :(

well I should just countdown to this being over right. it should make all this pass faster.

cny nail☆

2011-01-30T21:05:00.006+08:00

my nails for cny☆
kinda copied nishino kana's nails↓↓

though hers is infinitely more professional looking haha

rainy mornings

2011-01-30T09:33:00.002+08:00

love snuggling in my comforter and not having to wake up and rush off anywhere on rainy mornings ♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-01-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

ULTIMATE HNIKM ERIC MUN

lala

2011-01-25T11:47:00.000+08:00

♥ her songs
(& ♥ singing them at karaoke too heh)

& ♥ her compositions as well